Grown Up or Grown Old !

Well, in few hours i will loose another year from my life.. I will grow older and along with ... will have to bear more responsibilities, will have to pretend as if i gained some more experience from life in all these years, will have to stop behaving like a kid and will be expected to act smarter, to be on my words, to get serious about studies and life, will be taunted on my silly feelings, will be......... watever... When i didn't cared till 21, so what's the fuss about being 22. I love myself the way i am, i love my stupidities, i love the kid inside me, i love being called mad, crazy, idiot caz of my feelings which are quite impractical in today's scenario, i love my anger which results in hurting people till end, i love my forgiveness which allows even the most unexpected people back in my life, i love my ego which keeps my dignity in my eyes atleast, i love repeating the same mistakes again if it's give me happiness (Imagine falling in love thrice... n with the same person.. that's just a example, so don't start using ur brains), i love making complete strangers as best buddies forever (m good at it), i love my creativity which are currently limited caz of my dis-interest in everything, i just love almost everything about myself.. the only thing i wish to change is my procrastination, which is my best supporter for every circumstances... but then again, that completes me.. that's completes a Sagittarius.. the "arrey ho jayega" n "I don't care" attitude.. lol

So, am i excited or pondering over getting old.. I don't know.. Presently, am not running through a phase which should have included birthdays or celebrations, and of mine, is like keeping a fake smile through out the day without feeling it.. M i happy, or completely broken, i have no idea.. All i know is that i am missing the most precious thing in my life.. Candy.. i mean sweets, doc has advised me to have less of them as it would harm me.. but did doc know that i can't even think a life without it.. i can't even see it.. how pathetic...

On the other hand the exciting thing attached to my b'day is my "Surprise b'day party"... How a party can be surprised if it's known already, but in my case indeed it is.. Cause i have to pretend as completely surprised, taken a back, as my Mom n Dad are visiting Delhi tomorrow to surprise me... 'Surprise me' cause they didn't told me about it, rather they lied that they would be coming by 20th of this month.. But my sweet n caring bro had to leak out the news as i was planning a party with friends, which i hardly needed.. Last year on the same great day, i had surprised my Mom n Dad by going at their place in Nagaland without informing them, so it's a pay-back time.. They were more than happy on my surprise visit and even i have the same feeling although it's no longer a surprise for me.. So, lets see, if i am good at acting or not... I love You Mom & Dad - You Guys mean the world to me, Bro u r also included along with missin' candy in my world...

Hmmm... So i would also like to mention about 'Paa..' - A movie which touched my heart, by not it's story but by class acting by Senior AB.. He can make jealous to any of the actor who pretend to be King in bollywood.. no intention to hurt any personal feelings... Although the movie was very good and Junior AB has also learned some acting skills by now, but the show we watched @ 11pm, had just we as the viewer... It gave a feeling like, as if we booked the multiplex as a hi-fi minister or something.. However, we enjoyed the movie alot.. Amit Ji Rockssss...

Last but not the least, '2 States' by Chetan Bhagat.. I thought to write my blog after i complete this novel, but i m in midway, n i wanted to discuss about many a thing else, so can't give my complete review on the book... This has been first time when i have not completed a CB book in one go... I did with all three earlier, Five Point Someone, One Night @ the call center, 3 Mistakes of my Life... But now my life has become such a mess, due to Job n all, that i can't think of that... Anyways... I like CB's way of narrating his stories, cause somewhere i can find a rhythm between his n mine way of saying something... he he.. Although he has far more observing power n he earns a tag of IIT-D n IIM-A, which i m still dreaming of... CB always wanted to become a writer n i haven't decided what to do with my life, he wanted to bring a change in India through his pen, which i guess, he has tried his best... Love ya CB... Anyhow, i would like to mention few lines which i won't forget even i keep the book away from my sight...

"Why would any guy want to be friends with a girl? It's like agreeing to be near a chocolate cake and never eat it. It's like sitting in a racing car but not driving it..." So damn funny n true in cases where u like the girl.

"Who the fuck invented the word sorry? How can there be just one word to answer anything one does....", True again...

Even it would be silly to compare myself with such huge talent India has, but we have one similarity, which i felt connection with... When Krish (male lead) was asked about which company he wants to join once he passes out from IIM-A by Ananya (his girlfriend), Krish answers... WPM..

"What's WPM"

"Whoever Pays More"...WPM

I follow the same policy : "If u want Loyalty, get a dog.. I work for Money.."