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Thursday, April 28, 2011

The Day I Met You !

The day I met you, I didn’t knew, we will come so far together.
The day I saw you, I didn’t thought, we will become friends forever.
The day I knew you, I didn’t felt, we will someday miss each other.
The day I called you, I had no idea about our friendship, altogether.

You understood my wonders, and listened to my dreams.
You heard to how I felt about Love & Life, and knew what it all means.
Never ever did you interrupt me, or said me I was wrong.
You understood what I was going through, and assured you’d stay long.

It was your smile which told me that life is not so mean.
It was your eyes which said me to hold back during thick & thin.
It was your faith which forced me to believe in myself.
It was your cuteness which dragged me to you, itself.

I was there for you, not to make you dependent on me.
I cared for you, so that one day you will set yourself free.
With you I smile, I laugh, I do idiotic things, I feel adventuress.
But I did felt bad one day which you know I would never express.

The moments we spent will never go away from my heart.
No matter wherever we are, we won’t ever be apart.
You’re never alone, I am always there for you.
Just reach your cell phone Phantom, & I am here for you.

I will miss you in every walk of my life. Take Care !

(P.S. : This poem is meant for a very sweet friend. We are parting our ways for some reasons.)

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Aakash & Ria - 3

'I don't know what to do. I have my exams in next 20 days & I am not prepared at all.' Ria was tensed about her CS exam which she has to give again cause last year she overslept in one paper.  

'Chill sweetie, you just have three subject and you will be able to clear it easily, just focus from now on. The topics are not that tough.' Confidently said Aakash unaware about the complexities of the subjects but he had confidence in Ria. She was a intelligent & hard working gal, but she needed the push.

'I am good at two subject but the third one.... oh god.. You feel it's easy, have you read it earlier', asked Ria

'Yeah, I have read all that in my graduation, it's not that tough', said aakash to make her feel lighter, cause worrying about a problem makes it bigger.. and he never did that, even if he had an hour before exam. 

'Can you teach me?' 

'Ya sure, anytime for you', He couldn't say no to her, he never did in his life.

'Should i come over at your place or will you come at mine ?' she said mischievously cause she knew Aakash wouldn't let her travel alone to his place. He would come to pick her up.

'I would come sweetheart, don't you get bothered and act smart with me.'

'ohk then, you can come from tomorrow.. i have taken leave at office for my exams, and Mamma will be at home, is it alright for you', Ria just wanted to tease him.

'Obviously it's alright for me, i hope you are calling for studying, so aunty won't be angry on it..' Aakash understood she was in playful mood and was also excited to meet aunty for the first time.

'Hmm.. i will call you tomorrow..and tell you the time'

'Sure, bye for now, take care'

Aakash said that he will teach her, but how... the subject she has to study, aakash only had rough idea and few topics were unheard to him before. Besides, it has been almost 2 years since he completed his grad, so he was even out of flow.. but he didn't want to sound low infront of Ria, cause he knew that might be this is the chance when he can meet Ria a bit often. The last time they met was some two and a half months back and before that some eight months back. Aakash could do anything, be anything, learn anything if that results in seeing Ria more frequently or if possible, daily... He has stopped fighting with her over petty issues since they didn't talk for 6 months, and somewhere Aakash thought that his anger will just keep Ria away from him. She has to go one day, maybe in next few years when she will get married to some well-settled guy (every family wants that n even every girl) , & Aakash would take time to settle, he has to take admission in a B-school and complete his MBA, all of which would take a least of 3 years. So he knew that she would never be his forever but he can be with her until...... He loved her from his school days, but he somewhere got matured in his love now. After 7 and a half year he actually started understanding her, her feelings, her weird mind, her soft heart, her don't care attitude and her caring side. He was trying to understand that now she doesn't love him and he is a good friend to her, and he can't change her feelings for him, maybe, he didn't wanted to...anymore.. He just wanted to keep her happy till the time he can be with her, no matter what. He have stopped feeling about his own feelings.

Aakash called up his Bhabhi for suggesting him a right book for the subject he has to teach her. She was a genius in her studies & the only person who understood Aakash madness for Ria. She suggested him the well known book for Corporate accounting. Aakash bought the book in next hour and by evening he opened the book. Corporate accounting was not in his syllabus of Grad, so he couldn't get anything much besides few share and debenture topic. He turned the pages for a hour but seemed helpless. He thought to take coaching for the subject but it wasn't possible cause next day he had to teach her. He called his few friends who might be aware of the subject and luck favoured him. One of his friend agreed to impart his valuable knowledge over the subject, (for aakash it was priceless). They decided to meet next morning.. Aakash took a sign of relief and slept off. 

Sharp, at 9:00 am he reached at Ravi's place. Ravi was half asleep but Aakash kicked him hard enough to make him sit on his bed.

'What happened? Why do you need to study corporate so urgently? What are you doing these days in life?', Ravi said, waking up rubbing his ass.

'Nothing, am just planning to do CS'

'Stop kidding, tell me else i won't teach you.' Ravi started blackmailing.

'Ohk dude, One of my childhood friend has exam of CS in next few weeks, and he is not prepared, i just want to help him out', Aakash was telling a lie which any dumb-ass could catch.

'He or she, Aakash you are too sweet to lie, so stop trying it.'

'Hmm.. anyway, stop giggling and get fresh.. i don't have much time, i need to be prepared with at least a chapter by evening'

'Oh ho.. Ohk then, gimme 10 mins'

Ravi started with shares & debentures and for next 4 hours poured all of his knowledge in regarding chapter out. Aakash too grabbed it with interest more than he did for even his exams. He went back home and was waiting for Ria's call. She didn't. Tired of waiting he called her...

'Hey, whats up?'

'Nothing yaar, You know what, Daddy gave a surprise visit this morning. I did talk to mummy that you will be coming, and she agreed to it. But daddy told to keep a tuition teacher, which will be coming home.' Ria said feeling sad.

'C'mon it's good. The teacher will be nice option as only few days are left. He will be having enough knowledge, and better than me sweetie, he will have a good command on numerical and we can discuss the theory part on phone if you face any difficulty', Aakash didn't said about his hard work, cause that was of no use.

'Hmmm... but i will make you meet mummy in few days, when daddy will be going out of station again.', Ria did felt bad that she wasn't able to meet Aakash again.

'It's ohk.. you concentrate on your studies' Aakash understood her, always.

They talked for next one hour discussing about the subject and topics which were important. Ria was talking, Aakash was listening. He just loved her voice, it felt so sweet to him that it didn't matter to Aakash what she was speaking as long as she was speaking. Her voice was so tempting and kiddish that Aakash couldn't fight with her on phone, whenever he did fought, he messaged her. But not anymore. He just didn't want to fight with her, he didn't want to hurt her. She did called him next day and called him home.

Aakash was on cloud no 9, the day he met aunty.

(P.S.: Sorry for over than one year gap for Aakash Ria's story)

Friday, March 4, 2011

Feelin' Unsaid !

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say.
I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't.

But inside of me there are thousand words waiting to come out.
And tell you how I feel-like, how much i miss you.
And how I love you despite of your ignorance.
And how i need you in my life each moment.
And especially how much i want you.

All i do is dream about you every night.. where you are mine.
Where we both are lost in each other arms, as if i would never let you go.
Where i kiss your forehead and say that i will always be beside you, always.
Where we hold hands and walk as the road will never end.

But dreams do end, and those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too.. but I'll never know.

{P.S. Read it somewhere, and found connections, few modifications.. :) }

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Come With Me Someday Baby

Come with me Someday baby
I will take you to a world of mine
Where's no sorrow, no tears
where smile will always shine

Come with me someday baby
Come to my dream land
Where you are mine forever
where you never leave my hand

Come with me someday baby
Come and get lost with me
where's no complain, no grudges
where sky is colourful and birds are free

Come with me someday baby
Someday come to my heart
Come and see what you mean to me
Where even for a second we aren't apart.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

The Girl who stole my smile :(

Rohan was one of the most 'irritating kid' u can meet.. At the age of 22 he still behaved like a kid and that what use to irritates normal people, until and unless u have a unconditional love or soft corner for him, as the girls did (i mentioned, normal people). He was envied by many of his mates cause of his popularity among girls. He was good at studies, ok at emotions, and so so at love.. He believed in love so much, as he was always searching for it. Searching mean, he was in love all the time, he never had a heart break or a serious feeling for his girlfriends, caz somewhere or the other they didn't fit his criteria of a perfect GF.. Some were less beautiful, some were 'miss touch me not' types, some were too much talkative, most of them were less intelligent or to be precise having no sign of intelligence. He discovered the problems in few months and made the girl realise that she was wrong until they thought, 'Rohan deserves a better girl than i am'. He didn't enjoyed the Break-ups but according to him, it was the need of hour and God had sent him for better purpose than fighting over a relationship, only till he found a better girl, (who would not be better anymore after few weeks, or months). The good part was,he didn't kept it for long, as soon as he felt that a girl is getting serious about him, he starts making his plans for the D-day, alas, the break up day.. He was a good person at heart, but his hormones always forced him to think otherwise. Of all his dozen + relationships, few of them were easily available, whom he didn't missed to avail, few of them were romantic types, time taking, and few of them after marriage types, don't touch me.. He was not looking for anyone around as his past two gf's came in the 3rd category which scared him a lot.

It was just another day of September end when rains were still visiting Delhi almost every alternate day. Rohan didn't had much to do, as his college were off for a month. Except the daily compulsory attendance at Facebook. He didn't had much friends to hang out with. But this didn't gave him a break from talking over phone. He did had friends, but most of them were from his schools with whom he could just be what he was. He always felt that after a age, u make friends according to needs, but childhood friends are always there to stay. But all his childhood friends were in different states. So hanging out was a big issue as his past gf's were so guilty about the relationship that they never called back(as he wanted). He was just surfing through net when he received a friend request by a girl who use to study in his school and had few mutual friends along with profile pic to testify her genuineness. She was looking hot, unlike school time, when she use to tie her hair on both sides. Hairs open, skirts short, nice figure, required assets, and open minded.. were few deduction made after seeing her album. He was sure that she is not virgin, by her constantly usage of the F word on her profile, whether it be, about me section, the status updates, the comments.. Suddenly scrolling down on info section something caught his attention. "Current Location :  New Delhi, India." He thought here it is, his next most probable girl who was  surely not like the 3rd category. He sent a message to her on FB, "hey, wassup long time, huh, wat r u doing in delhi, wat's ur no?" (to the point).. He received a reply next minute, "Hey fuck man, how are u.. Where u have been fucking around all these years, n f...... " , more F word were followed with her number at last.. As he read it, he wished that her first two-three words were the last ones, she is too talkative and only her first two-three words made sense to him. Without giving much pressure to his brains at this early stage, he took the phone and ringed her up. She picked up with a A word this time and continued the F's later on. He was sure that she was not a hard nut to crack. Before he was thinking, she asked him if they could meet up today. Being a man, he couldn't deny her. Other reasons were to support his decision like he was bored like hell and needed something fresh. He went on to take his bath, which he hadn't taken from past a week, well according to him there was no need of it, caz he was locked in a room for whole day, have to meet nobody, then why to waste water, which is already in shortage.

Dressed at his best, he reached the decided venue 15 min earlier to have a look at other hot girls who roam there, Ansal Plaza. He received her call 10 min later confirming the place he was at. As Rohan saw her, he was awestruck, she was not only hot, but she was beautiful too. She didn't only wear mini skirt but has also a tatoo on her waist showing her sun-sign. Most importantly, she didn't only had a pair of good assets but also a pair of beautiful eyes. She was hotter, prettier, sexier than his previous girls, and he was just hoping that she possesses some intelligence to support his cause of making her as his girlfriend. Rohan was about to move his hand forward to shake, but she was too fast to hug him. He felt a vibe, after long time a physical touch to erect his feelings and soft corners, as his last breakup took somewhere 2 months back, n last physical touch, 5 months back.. They talked for few minutes until they settled to have something from Mac'D and continue the chat over there. With the speed she was going Rohan was sure that she had had a breakup recently and was desperate to move on. Where as he was desperate to move in. She continued the touching of hands while talking unknowing that she was directly hitting his hormones. Rohan was getting uncomfortable as his organs were not supporting his long term cause. He controlled himself hard until they planned to meet up again, n at a more private place. Good news for the champion. They talked all the nonsense and whereabout of classmates. Virginity, dignity, affairs, crushes were in other topic discussed. 

Waving off a final bye to the auto which she took to her home, Rohan turn around with a sign of relief. He sat at a Bus stop to catch the next bus back home, his mind wandering around her legs and other hyped places. He was making love to her in his mind. He was in his world until something caught his attention. A li'l girl of approx 4-5 years was crossing the road, She had no one around her, well, by her attire he could make out that she was poor enough to have relatives or family. His mind got diverted from leg piece to feeling of pity. Not much could he think about, all he could see rain starting again at its full speed. The girl was getting wet and he was getting worried if she had enough money for her medication if something happens, obviously not. She ran and came towards the bus stop to get a shelter. Shivering in her torn cloth at places, she seemed the most helpless girl around. He was feeling, if only he was rich he would have done something for orphan and poor child. His bus was standing in front of him but he was no longer in hurry to catch it, his thoughts were more nobel. He stood up to catch the bus as he knew that if he didn't catch it now, it would mean a wait for another hour. He moved on, but thought of the poor girl didn't left him. 

The rain stopped next morning. He was upset about last day, n was wondering what could have happened to the girl. He moved his mind to other thing as to not to worry much, he decided to roam somewhere alone, n Ansal Plaza has been his nearest spot with much window shopping along with warn environment. When he got off at the bus stop, he saw some policemen at the other side of the road surrounded by a crowd. It was the same bus stop from where he took bus last evening. He got concerned and thought to have a look. As he went near by his heart beats were beating faster. Each inch closer he could hear the voices more clear. 'She was a poor kid', 'Must have no place to live', 'The bloody rain is now killing people(poor people, he meant)' n blah blah.. Rohan was shocked, he didn't knew that his negligence would cause a life. The cute li'l girl was dead and he could do nothing about it, not that he didn't wanted to, but he didn't put that effort to save her. It all started haunting him. He ran back home. He was feeling shameful for his no action. He was feeling like impotent. He didn't bought her home, cause he was afraid of the norms of society, or rather he was used to the ignorance attitude society has. He was feeling guilty, for the first time, though. He was not able to feel any more, all the girls he had were millions time away from his mind. The only girl he had in mind was the 5 year whom he had left to die. He felt numb, he was just not able to smile anymore...

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Why is it so...?

Why is it so...?
that i Sleep with the same dream every night,
and wake up to reality each morning,
knowing it was just a dream 
and it can never be real, never mine.

Why is it so...?
that the more i try to forget you,
the moments we shared are more clear,
dragging me back to the same place,
where i should never have been, i feel now.

Why is it so...? 
No matter, how hard i try, i can't sleep whole night
and whenever my eyes shuts, you come in my dreams
where i only try to don't let you go,
but when dream is over, you were gone long ago.

Why is it so...?
My heart beats only for you, 
ignoring the pain you gave me,
knowing that you ignored my feelings for your own's, 
or might be, you just had enough of me.

Why is it so...?
That i want to cry a ocean,
but tears are not coming out,
as if, they are over.
as if, they will not affect you, as always.

Why is it so...?
Each time i expressed how i feel for you,
how i can't live without you,
each time you went a li'l far from me,
now so far, that i can't even call back,

Can't even express how much i am incomplete without you...

Sunday, March 21, 2010

55 Fiction - 2

more I Miss You...

I don't know why i love you so much,
but i guess, i am left with no option.
Cause it's you who makes me feel complete,
even knowing that you can never be mine.
I try hard to forget those moments we shared,
More i try, more i feel for you. more I MISS YOU...