Saturday, October 10, 2009
I Say i m Selfish
“It is not because the truth is too difficult to see that we make mistakes... we make mistakes because the easiest and most comfortable course for us is to seek insight where it accords with our emotions - especially selfish ones.”
We all are born selfish, whether we admit it or not. No one lives for anybody else n everybody expects others to live for them. That is how we are called human. Selfishness is devotion to or concern with one's own advantage or welfare to the exclusion of regard for others. Science and religion both teach selfishness. Selfishness results from the original sin of separation.It is the stinginess resulting from a concern for your own welfare and a disregard of others. We love anybody because that person makes us feel good, we feel better talking to them, sharing something with them, spending time with them, never because that person loves us. In today's dictionary 'LOVE' in itself means selfishness where we just stop caring about the rest of world except one person, neglecting the fact that we are just caring about our feelings not even that one person. But as human nature goes, we will still pretend that we love them.
Personally speakin' I have been a selfish being all my life, in practice, though not in principle. My so called principles and morals always said me that i am living for others and i hardly think about my own self, which is never true.
I say i care, i show i care, but when it is not valued don't i start barking it aloud to the whole world just proving that in reality i hardly care.
I say i love, i show i love, but when i am not loved in return don't i cry infront of others making that person culprit.
I say i need you, i show i need you, but when i feel ingnored don't i change my needs to drinks and smokin'.
I say i don't wanna hurt you, but don't i hurt you by repeating this phrase millions of time when you are just not interested.
I say i miss you, i show i miss you, but when you don't reply being busy with some serious stuff, don't i stop saying it next time.
I say i understand, i show i understand, but when you don't understand sometimes, don't i start making an issue.
I say i just want your happiness, but don't i become a hurdle when i see you being happy with someone else.
I say i m sorry, i show m sorry, but do i really mean it, when i keep on repeating the same mistakes again and again.
I say i l manage, i pretend i l manage, when i can't manage my emotions how can i say the same about life.
I say i don't give a damn, when i m obsessed with only that thing, m i not just keeping my ego at priority.
I say i don't cry, i pretend i never do, but why my pillow is wet most of the times.
I should better say i m selfish as any other human being rather pretending that i live for others, as if i m not human.
“Thinking more than others about our own thoughts is not self-centeredness. It means that if asked what’s on our mind, we are less likely to mention being aware of the world around us, and more likely to mention our inner reflections.”
I can't figure out that like me even you all are selfish, but this is me and according to me being selfish is not crime, unless you are hurting others for your selfishness. I just wish that my selfishness doesn't comes in others happiness, rather in there's about whom atleast i care or pretend to care.
(P.J. : I will be selfish untill i plan to settle down in himalayas.)